This.

I don't know.

I've been feeling ehh lately. 

I want my best friend to talk to. 

But I don't know if she wants to listen. 

I don't even know if we still are best friends. 

It's one thing to say it...but another to actually feel it. 

To me though, she's still my best friend. No doubt about it. 

It's okay. I understand if we still can't be that way. 

I need/want to tell her things that I'm not telling other people. 

Whatever though, right? 

I don't know. 

I don't want to be needy. 

I won't say anything. 

I'll act like I'm fine and no one will ever know. 

Except for you guys that actually read this shit.