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dynex

I haven't updated in a while.

But I guess mostly because everyone that reads this already knows what's going on anyway.

So I'm on leave right now.

Nothing too exciting.

I'm just kicking it at home playing GTA IV.

Yeah, I brought my tv and PS3 back home just so I could play.

Y que?!

Man, I wish things weren't so confusing.

There are so many gray areas.

I should've gotten stationed overseas or back in the east coast.

I came back and shit exploded in my face.

Yeah, shit that I caused but would've never happened if I was gone.

Well...I'll have a new change of pace anyway.

17 months in a shithole should be interesting.

I'm not sad, angry, disappointed or any of those upsetting emotions.

I'm actually just feeling...nothing.

It's weird because you'd think that it'd be depressing but it actually isn't.

But it also isn't happy either.

Anyway, see you guys soon. I guess.

Diesel

Yesterday after the mandatory Christmas party, I went to the mall with Bies, Tegan and Brandyn.
They got 2 Husky puppies!
They're cute as fuck.
One boy and one girl.
They're gonna breed 'em once they're old enough to do that kind of stuff.

Anyway, work is boring and I really need to go on leave.
Whateeevvvvsssss...
I've been really sleepy for the last 2 days and I really don't know what it is.
But right now I'm sleepy and hyper and that's never good.

Later on I'm gonna go see 2012.
I think that's what the movie is called.
I have no real interest to watch it but hey, I'm not paying for it.
But I do have to drive. Lame.

I want to play GTA IV.

Oh what?

So basically, you know what this is about.

I love your flirting ways. I swear, I do it too.

But it's different when you take it a step further.

I'm hurting.

And you might say you are.

I believe you.

You should have thought about it.

I know that you knew the repercussions.

You're smart.

Yet you're the dumbest person I know.

Fuck. I still love you.

I'm the dumbest person I know.

You should've said no,
You should've gone home,
You should have thought twice before you let it all go.

ice cream

Chris and I had an argument today.

Mint and chocolate should never mix.

What a crazy lad.

Anyway, where are my "real friends"?

I'm an insensitive, unsympathetic bastard.

But since I'm a girl...I guess that just makes me a bitch.

Fuck it. 

fat twat

It's been bothering me for a while.

No one brings it up.

But fuck it, right? 

Another thing thats bothering me...

I don't want to get kicked off.

damn. 

kevin

There was that party last night. 

And there was some talking. 

And I'm not sure if I forgive you.

I don't know.

It's hard.

I know I want to.

But I feel like I'd be stupid if I did. 

Because this would be the millionth time that I did.

What makes me think that you wont do it again?

I don't know...

I'm glad that we talked. 

But now I'm confused. 

All I know is that it'll take time.

I don't know how long. 

Because I don't even really know what I'm talking about.

Now I'm just rambling. 

Argh...

Oh, and on a completely different note:

way to tell me that you don't have your phone.

so now I'm all retarded. =/